Doctor Fiancee (kellingham) wrote,
Doctor Fiancee
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I finally got my MP3s moved over to this new laptop, so back to working on this soundtrack of my life, the movie. When It's done I'll see if I can upload it for people or something. I think everyone should make their own movie soundtrack. Then we can collect them all.. like Pokemon.

Opening Credits:
In the beginning there was semen,
In a deep mound of flesh,
And a crest that traveled,
On a wave of their own mess.

Through a tunnel of mucus,
And onto a vault,
With tourists and traffic,
I just paced myself.

Not I as my whole self,
Just the half that I had,
Before greeting the rest,
Of my better half.

A connection was made,
Through the shared love of science,
And vows were taken,
A seat was hired.

A cavern of fluid,
Brought shape to my hide,
In the months that remain,
To the time of my life.

Add flash for the reason,
Was spilling from the crack,
To the palms of the doctor,
To a towel full of scraps.

My brains wouldn't fit,
Through organ sex,
An incision was made,
With a scalpel and mess.

I should have noticed the beauty,
And not how it hurt,
Wet like a cherry,
In the bloodbath of birth.

Waking Up Scene:
Lisa knows a girl who's been abused
It changed her philosophy in '82
She's always looking for a fight
She keeps the neighbours up all night

I go to her when I'm feeling slack
The girl's using me as a punching bag
I think that I could help her out
But the girl's got a lot to be mad about

BUT in the first moment of her waking up
She knows she's losing it, yeah she's losing it
When the first cup of coffee tastes like washing up
She knows she's losing it, yeah she's losing
Yeah she's losing it

Lisa met Chelsea at the knocking school
Chelsea didn't feel like following the rules
So they left the place for another school
Where the boys go with boys and the girls with girls

Chelsea was the ONE who's been abused
It changed her philosophy in '82
She says, "Inch for inch and pound for pound"
Who needs boys when there's Lisa round?">

BUT in the first moment of her waking up
She knows she's losing it, yeah she's losing it
When the first cup of coffee tastes like washing up
She knows she's losing it, yeah she's losing it
She goes to the mirror to put on her stuff
She knows she's losing it, oh yeah she's losing it
When she doesn't speak to anyone till four 0' clock
She knows she's losing it, yeah she's losing it
Oh yeah she's losing it


Car Driving Scene:

Hey Pretty
Well it's 3a.m. I'm out here driving again
Through the wicked winding streets of my world
I take a wrong turn break it but I'm too far gone
I've got a siren on my tale and that's not the fine
I'm looking for


I see a stairway so I follow it down
Into the belly of a whale
Where my secrets echo all around
You know me now but to do better than that
You've got to follow me
Boy I'm trying to show you where I'm at


Hey pretty
Don't you wanna take a ride with me?
Through my world
Hey pretty
Don't you wanna kick and slide with me
Through my world


Well I've got a mind full of wicked desings
I've got a non-stop-whole in my head-imagination
I can't forget I am a sole architect
I built the shadows here
I built the growl in the voice I fear
You know me now but to do better than that
You've got to follow me
Boy I'm triing to show you where I'm at


Hey pretty
Don't you wana take a ride with me?
Through my world
Hey pretty
Don't you wanna kick and slide with me
Through my world
Hey pretty
My pretty baby
Rock it through my world


Hey now
Can't you feel me longing
Hey now
You get the gist of the song now?

High School Flashback Scene:
I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
I see a line of cars and they’re all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens ev’ry day
I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it has been painted black
Maybe then I’ll fade away and not have to face the facts
It’s not easy facin’ up when your whole world is black

No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the settin’ sun
My love will laugh with me before the mornin’ comes

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
Hmm, hmm, hmm,...
I wanna see it painted, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black
Yeah!

Nostalgic Scene:
Father wears his Sunday best
Mother's tired she needs a rest
The kids are playing up downstairs
Sister's sighing in her sleep
Brother's got a date to keep
He can't hang around

Our house, in the middle of our street
Our house, in the middle of our ...

Our house it has a crowd
There's always something happening
And it's usually quite loud
Our mum she's so house-proud
Nothing ever slows her down
And a mess is not allowed

Our house, in the middle of our street
Our house, in the middle of our ...

Our house, in the middle of our street
Our house, in the middle of our ...
Something tells you that you've got to get away from it

Father gets up late for work
Mother has to iron his shirt
Then she sends the kids to school
Sees them off with a small kiss
She's the one they're going to miss
In lots of ways

Our house, in the middle of our street
Our house, in the middle of our ...

I remember way back then when everything was true and when
We would have such a very good time such a fine time
Such a happy time
And I remember how we'd play simply waste the day away
Then we'd say nothing would come between us two dreamers

Father wears his Sunday best
Mother's tired she needs a rest
The kids are playing up downstairs
Sister's sighing in her sleep
Brother's got a date to keep
He can't hang around

Our house, in the middle of our street
Our house, in the middle of our street

Our house, in the middle of our street
Our house, in the middle of our ...

Our house, was our castle and our keep
Our house, in the middle of our street

Our house, that was where we used to sleep
Our house, in the middle of our street

Our house, in the middle of our street


Bitter, Angry Scene:
When I am queen I will insist with perfect scars upon my wrists
that everything you once held dear is taken away from you

When I am queen sweet girlscout's face and not a one will fall from grace
If all their hearts I could replace, but until then I'll have to...

Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown

When I am queen on royal thrown made out of parts of broken bones
of all the devils I have known that suck the angels dry

When I am queen I'll have my way I'll make it drowning dollie day
and all the tears that we have cried will suck back in our eyes

Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown

Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown

Hush baby hush baby
Hush baby go to sleep
Hush baby hush baby
Hush baby I'll make it be

When I am queen I will not wait my body type will still be great
I will not leave it up to fate because I hate you too

When I am queen they all will see the patron saint of self-injury
the glitter sores will heal themselves I'll play the part of someone else

Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown

Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown

Angsty Best Friend Scene:
You were fresh off the boat from Virginia
I had a year in New York City under my belt
We met in a dream
We were both nineteen
I remember where we were standing
I remember how it felt
Two little girls
Growing out of their training bras
This little girl breaks furniture
This little girl breaks laws
Two girls together
Just a little less alone
This little girl cries wee wee wee
All the way home

You were always half crazy
Now look at you baby
Make about as much sense as a nursery rhyme
Love is a piano
Dropped from a four story window
And you were in the wrong place
At the wrong time
I don't like your girlfriend
I blame her
Never seen one of your lovers
Do you so much harm
I loved you first
And you know I would prefer
If she didn't empty her syringes into your arm

Here comes little naked me
Padding up to the bathroom door to find little naked you
Slumped on the bathroom floor
So I guess I'll just stand here with my back against the wall
While you distill your whole life down to a 911 call

Now you bring me your bruises
So I can ooh and ah at the display
Maybe I'm supposed to make one of my famous jokes that makes everything ok
Or maybe I'm supposed to be the handsome prince
Who rides up and unties your hands
Or maybe I'm supposed to be the furrowed-brow friend
Who thinks she understands

Here comes little naked me
Padding up to the bathroom door to find little naked you
Slumped on the bathroom floor
So I guess I'll just stand here
With my back against the wall
While you distill your whole life down to a 911 call

Happy Friend Scene:
When everything is wrong I'll come talk to you
You make things alright when I'm feeling blue

You are such a blessing and I wont be messing
With the one thing that brings light to all of my darkness

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

There is no other one who can take your place
I feel happy inside when I see your face
I hope you believe me
Cuz I speak sincerely
and I mean it when I tell you that I need you

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

I'm here right beside you
I will never leave you
and I feel the pain you feel when you start crying

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do
Yes I do...
Yes I do

Regret Scene:
Long lost words whisper
slowly to me
still can't find what keeps
me here
when all this time I've been
so hollow inside
(I know you're still there)

Watching me
wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you loving you
I won't let you pull me down

Hunting you I can smell
you - alive
your heart pounding in my head

Watching me
wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Saving me raping me
watching me

Nightclub/Bar Scene:
It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,

It's DARE

It's DARE

You've got to press it on you
You just think it that's what you do baby
Hold it down DARE
Jump with the moon and move it
Jump back and forth
It feels like you would let yourself
Work it out

Never did no harm,
Never did no harm,

It's DARE

It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,

It's DARE

It's DARE

You've got to press it on you
You just think it that's what you do baby
Hold it down DARE
Jump with the moon and move it
Jump back and forth
It feels like you would let Yourself
Work it out

Never did no harm,
Never did no harm,

It's DARE

It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,

It's DARE

Never did no harm,
Never did no harm,

It's DARE

It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,
It's coming up,

It's DARE

You've got to press it on you
You just think it that's what you do baby
Hold it down DARE
Jump with the moon and move it
Jump back and forth
And feel like you would let Yourself
Work it out

You've got to press it on you
You just think it that's what you do baby
Hold it down DARE

Jump with the moon and move it
Jump back and forth
It feels like you would let Yourself
Work it out

Fight/Action Scene: Judgement Day - Finis Omne (instrumental/chant)
Sad, Breakdown Scene:
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
In the head of this stranger in love

Holding on given up
To another under faded setting sun
And I wonder where I am...
Could she run away with him?
So happy and so young
And I stare
As I sing in the lost voice of a stranger in love
Out of time letting go

In another world that spins around for fun
And I wonder where I am...
Could he ever ask her why?
So happy and so young...
And I stare... But...
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
In the heart of this stranger in love
Holding on given up
To this other under faded setting sun
And I'm not sure where I am...
Would he really turn away?
So happy and so young...
And I stare...
As I play out the passion of a stranger in love
Letting go of the time
In this other world that spins around for one
And I'm not sure where I am...
Would she know it was a lie?
So happy and so young...
And I stare... But...
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
In the soul of this stranger in love
No control over one
To the other under faded setting sun
And I don't know where I am...
Should he beg her to forgive?
So happy and so young...
And I stare...
As I live out the story of a stranger in love
Waking up going on
In the other world that spins around undone
And I don't know where I am...
Should she really say goodbye?
So happy and so young
And I stare... But...
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I got lost in someone else.

Mellow Scene:
feather moon
scarlet sky
living clouds
my blinded eye
waters black
wood in snow
dead of night
how bright you glow

breathe in breathe out
exhale and inhale

seven sins
god of stone
all is true
down to the bone
feather moon
scarlet sky
I love you endlessly
not knowing why


Dreaming Scene: Twilight - Anthony And The Johnsons (no lyrics available yet)
Dreaming About Someone Scene:
In my mind-storm I did carry you
Through the briars of disbelief
Through the woods of lethargy
Through a groaning dark so deep
I thought I died

In the fountain I did cool our feet
Under red and rainless skies
Singing ragged lullabies
Through the grief all advertised
In neon lights

Baby your wish is my wish
And I have only this
From now on

Baby your wish is my wish
Keep on running to the door

I hear Beauty crying in her sleep
So I bent for one more kiss
And her tears will turn and twist
We make bliss to end all bliss
And all time

Baby your wish is my wish
And I have only this
From now on

Baby - your wish is my wish
Keep on running to the dawn
Running to the door...
Keep on running to the dawn

I hear Beauty crying in her sleep


Happy Love Scene:
Your love is better than ice cream
Better than anything else that I’ve tried
And your love is better than ice cream
Everyone here know how to fight

And it’s a long way down
It’s a long way down
It’s a long way down to the place
Where we started from

Your love is better than chocolate
Better than anything else that I’ve tried
Oh love is better than chocolate
Everyone here knows how to cry

It’s a long way down
It’s a long way down
It’s a long way down to the place
Where we started from...


Sex Scene:
Crickets are chirpin’ the water is high
There’s a soft cotton dress on the line hangin’ dry
Window’s wide open african trees
Bent over backwards in a hurricane breeze
Not a word, a goodbye, not even a note
She’s gone with the man in the long black coat

Somebody seem him hangin’ around
At the old dance hall on the outskirts of town
He looked into her eyes when she stopped him to ask
If he wanted to dance he had a face like a mask
Somebody said, from the Bible he quote
There was dust on the man in the long black coat

Preacher was talkin’ there’s a sermon he gave
He said every man’s conscience is vile and depraved
You cannot depend on it to be your guide
When it’s you who must keep it satisfied
It ain’t easy to swallow, it sticks in the throat
She give her heart to the man in the long black coat

One, two...
There are no mistakes in life some people say
It’s true sometimes you can see it that way
People don’t live or die, people just float
She give her heart to the man in the long black coat

There’s smoke on the water, it’s been there since june
Tree trunks uprooted in the high crescent moon
Hear the pulse and vibrations and the rumblin’ force
Somebody’s out there beating on a dead horse
She never said nothin’, there was nothin’ she wrote
She’s gone with the man in the long black coat


Contemplation Scene:
one by one, we force ourselves, we turn it on, it comes in waves.

we try to find, but maybe this time, dont turn your head,
its easy to forget, how we were.

once inside, we've made it here, we struggle with the lies, that never go away.
what have we learned, its the same old thing.

that traps us hear, and never goes away, we are chained.
through the tides, make your way you will find the time,
a comfort inside here I wait, in this safe place,
where we were so many years ago, so many years ago.

one by one, we closed our eyes, and returned to that place, as a thousand nights go by.
one by one, we close our eyes and return to that place, and a thousand nights went by.

Chase Scene: Summertime Killer - Luis Bacalov (instrumental)
Death Scene:
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Funeral Scene: May Fortune Smile Upon You (OC Remic) - Vigilante (instrumental)
Closing Credits:
Give me the dust of my father
Stand on the face of the ancients
Bare the secret flesh of time itself

Follow me (Follow me)
I've come so far behind again
Follow me (Follow me)
Wish so hard I'm there again
Follow me (Follow me)
Follow me (Follow me)

All that I wanted were things I had before
All that I needed I've never needed more
All of my questions are answers to my sins
All of my endings waiting to begin

I know the way that I falter
Can't be afraid of my patience
There's a sacred place where Razel keeps safe

Follow me (Follow me)
I've seen so much I'm blind again
Follow me (Follow me)
I feel so bad I'm in love again
Follow me (Follow me)

All that I wanted were things I had before
All that I needed I've never needed more
All of my questions are answers to my sins
All of my endings waiting to begin
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