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A still more glorious dawn awaits
Not a sunrise, but a galaxy rise
A morning filled with 400 billion suns
The rising of the milky way

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[Tuesday, October 12th 2010]
[ mood | content ]

I can't believe just how lucky I am.


[Monday, September 6th 2010]
[ mood | excited ]

I haven't posted in a while. I've been SUPER busy. With the house and the wedding going on I haven't really been online much at all. But I don't mind too much, because everything has just been wonderful. Even if I had to change my maid of honour at the last minute, I'm fortunate enough to have people ready to help me out without much notice.

Anyway, life is great. I have a beautiful home (it needs a clean and some unpacking still - but it IS my home and I feel completely comfortable here). I have a good life (sure the job sucks, but I'm getting enough of a wage to support the home and the people within it comfortably so it's not all bad).

I have a perfect almost-husband.

Did I mention I'm getting married in less than a week? Because I totally am.

I am fortunate enough to be getting married to my perfect match in life. I have never been so loved, nor have I ever loved so much. However shit my life has been in the past and however badly I have been treated, being here with him makes it all worth it. This week away from him is going to be one of the hardest weeks ever, but it will be worth it to walk down the aisle towards my lifemate and join him for the rest of our lives.


[Saturday, July 17th 2010]
[ mood | bouncy ]

So there we have it. The keys to my very first home. After all that paperwork and running around, I actually own the house. Pictures of it will be coming eventually.

Picked up the keys first thing in the morning. Mum and I drove over to read the meter and check everything was in order (like they were in fact the right keys for one, which they were). Before I got into bed this afternoon we had two and a half rooms almost entirely stripped of wallpaper. We were left with the bits we couldn't reach and one wall of woodchip paper. We had lunch, slept for a couple of hours and then headed back to the house with tools and ladders and whatnot. Managed to get the bits off the top from one room, most of the livingroom done, started on the woodchip. That will require water and more work tomorrow.

So! Tomorrow, we finish the stripping and hopefully start papering!

I now have a proper address and things.
So if anyone wants or needs my address for anything, just drop me a line and I'll let you know!

Happy Kel is happy! :)


[Wednesday, July 7th 2010]
[ mood | cheerful ]

About Me MemeCollapse )

[Thursday, June 24th 2010]
[ mood | excited ]

My wedding dress has been made for me. In a matter of weeks it will have the fitting done. The wedding won't be huge, but I will have some very dear people there that I haven't seen for far too long. And I have made lots of wonderful new friends over the past few months that I hope will be in my life for a long time, just as I am happy that those reading this are in my life.

My mortgage is well under way, and I shall be in my wonderful home early next month with luck. Maybe earlier if things go well!

I have already begun purchasing the items I will need to live there, my brand new washing machine arrives tomorrow. We're looking at paint and curtains and rugs and all that domestic bliss.

I am getting promoted at work. A proper one, with a raise and everything.

I am deeply loved, and I am eternally grateful for the chance to know what that feels like. I get to spend this weekend with the man I love, and this will be the last time either of us have to fly before he moves up here to be with me permanently in just a few weeks.

In short, I couldn't be happier right now. How did I ever get so lucky to have all these wonderful things happen to me?
How are you?

[Wednesday, May 5th 2010]
[ mood | contemplative ]

When doing that recent meme I was surprised to discover that one of the things that popped up several times was the fact people seem to think I should write more. Why, I have no idea. To be fully honest I didn't think that many people actually read the things I wrote. But you're all perfectly right of course - I have neglected it entirely of late. But I'm starting to feel so much more settled in myself lately I should pick it up again. Thanks to those that pointed it out.

Now, I know there's plenty of people on my friends list who really aren't interested in reading original fiction by amateur writers and that's fine. As such, I will happily make a filter. I did consider using my NaNoWriMo community ( kelnano ) but then I'll probably end up getting all mixed up come November. I'm really that dense sometimes.

If anyone wants to be on that filter in order to read my drivel, simply raise a hand here. Anyone who wants it will be accepted without question. Anyone who doesn't want it won't be causing me offence, each to their own and all that. I can't promise quality, but I can hope to promise originality at least.

Now to the interesting part. I am hoping to fill in a table. What table you might ask?
Look below the cut for more information and blathering.Collapse )


[Thursday, April 29th 2010]
[ mood | curious ]

Challenged by belgatherial and bardiphouka:
1. Respond with something random about you.
2. Tell you which color you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Tell you what animal you remind me of.
5. Ask you something I've always wondered about you.
6. Tell you my favorite thing about you.
7. Tell you my least favorite thing about you.
8. Challenge you to post this on your journal.

I haven't done a good meme in aaaaagees!


[Wednesday, April 28th 2010]
[ mood | chipper ]

To go to Florida, or not to go to Florida: that is the question.

Seriously. Florida or Japan.
I can't decide.

I'm supposed to be in Florida at the end of June. But then there's the honeymoon to consider. And the honeymoon is supposed to be in Japan.
Of course, I could just do both. But that's an issue of time. I'd have to do one next year, what with all the wedding planning and stuff taking up most of my holidays.
I could take a break and not go anywhere this year. It's not like I have to.
Or maybe just stick a pin in the map and go.


Can you believe Eilidh is almost five?!


[Wednesday, April 14th 2010]
[ mood | relaxed ]

I think I am closer to making a decision on what to do about housing. Looking at my options, and seeing the way things work around here, I may try for a while in council accommodation. A lot of the council flats are actually in the same blocks as the private ones I've been looking at so I know they're great quality and decent areas. But I'd be paying a fraction of the cost, and the only downside is that I would not really officially own the property for a few years. But that gives us time to build up enough money and get a really good mortgage, thus a house. Hopefully. Besides, with there only being two of us for the time being I don't suppose we really need three+ bedrooms and a garden yet. Gardens just need taken care of and that's boring. Let the council do it.

On the other hand the lure of owning property is a strong one. I have a good enough mortgage on my own to more than cover the cost of the first flat we viewed and it's a really really nice place. I could afford the second one too, but I am not as sold on that one, despite the rooms being huge.

Back in Luton in May for my fiancé's birthday.
I am decidedly pleased about this because I miss him so much right now.
Been sleeping on his side of the bed, cuddling the bear he bought me and making the best of his lingering smell before mum does laundry and I can't wrap myself up in it any more.

My neighbour with leukaemia (and face, liver, bone and God-knows-what other kinds of cancers) sadly passed away finally. It's for the best, her quality of life had vanished. The funeral is today and sadly it is at such an awkward time I will be unable to attend (work won't give us time off for funerals unless we're directly related, and they're even stingier about it to us nightshifters because they seem to think we stay up all day and work all night with no ill effects at all or something).

I'm going back for more blood tests next week.
Sooner or later they're going to work out what's wrong with me and fix it. Hopefully without any more of these massive pills they're making me take. Blech.

[Monday, April 12th 2010]
[ mood | lonely ]

Pete's back in Luton, I'm sitting here with a drink and a (freshly formatted and upgraded) laptop on my knee once more. We had a lovely, wonderful week together. We're closer and closer to both getting our first home and the wedding. We've viewed one place, I have another viewing tomorrow and we've put some bids in on some of the more awesome council places available. Fingers crossed we get the really nice ones with some luck.

And yet I find myself in the kitchen to take my horse pill (seriously, I swear they made these things for horses - they're huge) and for a moment I reach out for the kettle and the coffee to make Pete a drink too.

Hm. Some habits are good ones, and become habit quickly.

Not long until I'll get to do that again.

Also - We saw Kick-Ass while he was here.
If you haven't seen it, do. We loved it.

If I ever have a daughter, I want her to be just like Hit Girl.

Pete also showed me District 9 which I loved too.


[Saturday, April 10th 2010]
[ mood | optimistic ]

I am having an utterly awesome week. As a consequence I've hardly been online. If I've missed anything important, just drop me a note. I'll get around to it eventually.

In other news, we're getting closer and closer to getting a house. Looking at costs it seems we'll be in a flat, but a decently sized one until we can settle in a house properly. With more luck we can nab a maisonette.

And poking around briefly at my friendslist, I can see some things never change. And probably never will.

But I have, and I'm better for it.


[Wednesday, March 31st 2010]
[ mood | optimistic ]

And now for a musical break because I am in a musical mood this morning.

God it's been a lovely day! Everything's been going my way!
I took up croquet today and I'm on fire!

And who doesn't like the Dresden Dolls and Amanda Palmer?


[Monday, March 29th 2010]
[ mood | happy ]

I haven't really updated here for ages. I've just been so busy lately. Between work, planning the wedding and whatnot like that I'm not getting much time to myself. But it's totally worth it. I am quite simply happier than I have ever been before. I never realised how much was missing in my life until I had what I truly needed. I am one hell of a lucky woman. I found someone who loves me just the way I am and who encourages me to be myself. Someone who cherishes and appreciates me, and someone who in all the years we have known one another has never once taken me for granted. He has always been a good friend to me, and I am proud to be his bride.

And it just needed said.

Anyway, on other fronts the doctor is still puzzling over what to do about my blood results and liver. I go back to see him again this week for the latest results and see where we go from there. Either the dietary changes he gave me will have helped and he'll be able to work out exactly what I need more of, perhaps prescribe me supplements for the bits that are missing randomly, or it won't have worked and we'll have to try more tests. He isn't sure, but perhaps fixing the vitamin deficiencies will fix my liver too, but if it doesn't, I'll require more testing for that anyway.

As far as wedding planning goes, we're doing brilliantly in my opinion. We have the location, we have the reception venue, we have entertainment and caterers and loads of those silly little touches like favours and I even have my dress. Invites will be going out formally soon. At the moment there are no invites being sent out to those of you in the USA, because I know how much of a financial burden it is to expect any of you to travel all this way just for a wedding, however if anyone can actually attend and wants to, just let me know. I'd love to have friends there.

When it comes to work, I've been moved into a separate little room to do some more hands on stuff that suits me down to the ground. We even have a little radio in there, so that's nice. It's still not a career, but it's paying the bills. Which is good because there's a house I have my eye on.

In short: Life is good finally.


[Monday, March 15th 2010]
[ mood | lonely ]

I discovered the cutest thing ever.
Not only does chirallaeon giggle in his sleep, he's at that strange point where I can have a sleep-conversation with him. I get to ask what's making him giggle.
This weekend it was David Bowie with a silly new song about food and me dressed up as a castle for a fancy dress party.



[Monday, March 8th 2010]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Wedding date to chirallaeon confirmed:
September 11th, 2010 in Luton at 2pm.

I'm all excited. <3

[Sunday, March 7th 2010]
[ mood | lonely ]

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I'll watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.


[Friday, February 19th 2010]
[ mood | loved ]

If I should die this very moment
I wouldn't fear
For I've never known completeness
Like being here
Wrapped in the warmth of you
Loving every breath of you
Still my heart this moment
Or it might burst

Could we stay right here
Until the end of time
'Til the earth stops turning
Wanna love you 'til the seas run dry
I've found the one I've waited for

All this time I've loved you
And never known your face
All this time I've missed you
And searched this human race
Here is true peace
Here my heart most calm
Safe in your soul
Bathed in your sighs

Wanna stay right here
Until the end of time
'Til the earth stops turning
Gonna love you 'til the seas runs run dry
I've found the one I've waited for

All I've known,
All I've done,
All I've felt,
Was leading to this
All I've known,
All I've done,
All I've felt,
Was leading to this

Wanna stay right here
Until the end of time
'Til the earth stops turning
Gonna love you 'til the seas run dry
I've found the one I've waited for

The one I've waited for

Wanna stay right here
Until the end of time
'Til the earth stops turning
Gonna love you 'til the seas run dry
I've found the one I've waited for

The one I've waited for

The one I've waited for


Twitterings [Wednesday, February 17th 2010]
Tweets of the day:

  • 19:04 @StudioDraven Have fun love! Wish I was going too, it's going to be brilliant! &lt;3 #
  • 20:20 @StudioDraven I'm jealous. Of Depeche Mode because they get to see you! &lt;3 #
  • 20:36 @StudioDraven Have fun. Buy yourself a shirt too! &lt;3 #
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Twitterings [Tuesday, February 16th 2010]
Tweets of the day:

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Twitterings [Monday, February 15th 2010]
Tweets of the day:

  • 21:20 So I am home again, and missing @studiodraven already. But it was a wonderful weekend. &lt;3 #
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